I don’t know if it’s a blessing or a burden that with the change of the season from summer to fall that my baby also turns a year older. Today, in came the Santa Ana winds (for those of you not in Southern California- Santa Anas are very strong, hot, dry winds typically in the beginning of fall) and out went my first year as a mom. You can read all about my birth story here. I have so much to say, yet so little ability to express it today. Ugh, so many emotions! Moms, I know you know what I mean. Since I’m a little tongue-tied about how I feel today, one year later, here’s what I would tell myself a year ago if I knew the words to say.
Go with your gut, it won’t steer you wrong.
Sleepless nights will be nothing but a fleeting memory one day.
There is joy to be found in every single stage, even the difficult ones.
Wherever she falls asleep in your arms, stay there and rock her- everything else can wait.
Be grateful, even when it’s tough. She’s perfect.
Kiss her cheeks a million times.
Remember that toothless smile.
Reach out to others, they’re dying to help.
Read to her, sing to her, talk to her- everything wonderful she becomes is because of you.
Be kind to yourself, especially in the beginning.
Remember what those little eyelashes look like every night when she closes her eyes to sleep.
Hold those tiny hands.
Every memory will be special to you one day.
Give, give and give more even when you think you have nothing left to give.
And most importantly, if you’re trying your hardest there’s no such thing as messing up. You’re doing an amazing job.
We celebrated Leighton’s birthday on October 8th with family and friends at Underwood Family Farms. We had some of her favorite foods: mommy’s bolognese with gluten free penne, strawberries and melon and cucumber salad. There was feed for the animals and kids had access to all of activities that the farm normally offers like baby goat feeding, and train and tractor rides plus there was a harvest festival and heirloom pumpkin picking. We had picnic-themed decor and our favorite red velvet cake from Susie Cakes (same as our wedding cake). All around it was a perfect day!
Last year on my due date, October 2nd we went to Underwood as kind of an unbirthday celebration for the baby. Walking around seeing all of the families with babies and children and talking about what it would be like to bring the baby here the following October. I took the photo on the top that day and yesterday we went back to the passion fruit arches on the farm to take a photo one year later.
Leighton’s First Birthday at Underwood Family Farms